i just realised that today would be my last tuition lesson for the year! :) hip hip hooray!~ the new boss wanted to revamp all the tuition centre's worksheets, thus, she'll be closing the tuition centre for a month to sort everything out. so i get to see fir afterall! i'm so so so so elated!~ :)


gr treated us to watch hero! there were too many characters such that i only managed to remember the main actor's and actress's names only. the plot's a little confusing, but i like the jokes. :) not bad and definitely worth it since it's 2 and a half hours.

if only we didn't watch the movie at jp. if only we didn't choose today to watch the movie. if only we didn't decide to get shar's present from jp. if only we had decided on the present faster. if only we had eaten subway faster. if only as didn't forget to buy her stuffs the first time round, so we wouldn't have went back. if only we had walked faster to leave the place. if only i had left earlier for my tuition job.

i hate coincidences. why do you always have to appear when i'm expecting the least? why do i have to see you when i'm on the verge of forgetting you completely? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why?

finally, i came to inner peace, that all the work i had accepted was NOT because of a lack of money. i could have gotten a stable pocket money weekly, but i chose not to, partly because of pride, and partly because, it serves as a motivation for me to work. work so that i'd feel tired, so that i'd feel numb to all other things, so that i could forget everything.

my tuition kids drew me these. they made me feel that teaching is worthwhile, even when they do upset me. education job is never easy, but the satisfaction i've gotten is unlimited. the children are like seeds that are going to bloom, nurture them with care and they shall be the brightest flowers ever. :)

anyway, i saw my tuition centre's new boss. she's so passionate about teaching and promising. i feel i should stay on to help just because she's not educating for profit motives. she told me frankly that she is anticipating losses and that it's such a pity the tuition centre's in shambles now because it was a good tuition centre initially.

i just couldn't bear to leave.

anyway, i went to watch doraemon movie with fay. doraemon, the machine cat which is afraid of rats because one rat had bitten his ears off, brings nobita and his friends on an adventure to the cretaceous period!

i haven't watched doraemon for quite a while. it kind of relinquishes my yearn for doraemon as a pet. :P cute little blue creature.

yuki yaki wasn't appetizing, little variety of food and icky ambience. the only plus point might only be its efficient staff. almost all the other people who went there fried their own ice cream. they only manage to eat their pleasant ice cream after ouncing their strength to dig for it. flying ice cream all over. we decided to forego that upon seeing the disastrous state their ice cream was. :P



beautiful beautiful christmas tree.


an angel is gently descending to the ground! :)

happy 19th birthday sharon!~ :D

and for the moment, my december timetable below. saturday should be taken up soon. still waiting for the tuition centre to confirm with me. if all things go as planned, i am only left with weird timings to meet people up.

if i'm attempting to make everything possible, why can't you even put in a teeny weeny bit of effort? when i've fought all the chances for you, why can't you accept it when you've promised you'd try your best? i have always hated to be a middleman. why does everything have to let me down when i'm seeking my utmost best to make successes happen? the tuition centre changes its boss unanticipatedly, overnight, in a poof, without letting me know, until today, when news has changed to history, when i have decided to strive for the best for the kids? i'm aiming my best to arrange my sucky schedule so that i have time for everybody, to catch up on old times just before i get into an accident or discover i suffer from some terminal disease, but people just fly me kites and give me attitudes? it's not even my fault that i have a sucky schedule because i do have all the free time in the world as well. just that these bloody free times were at times when nobody wants to or is free to meet up. i'm experimenting tediously to balance my long overdue schoolwork and pathetic part time jobs and meaningless social activities and long term commitments to the family? it's not even an obligation to help random people. i'm already contesting very hard to accommodate to you people out there and work is a form of escapism, because seriously, i don't want to face certain heartless and insensitive brats. please bear in mind, you are busy, and so am i, if i can make the minimum effort to pull out precious time for you, that shows that i think you are worth it. make sure you do the same, if not, you're worthless the next time round. why do i not initiate meetups? because efforts do not pay off. you are on holidays but i am not. don't criticise me for taking so many part time jobs because i'm only continuing with what i'm doing during MY school term. oh, if you have forgotten, i am still having my damn school term all the way till june next year, when you'll be having your second round of holidays as well. it was perfectly alright until all you people start having holidays and scrutinise my timetable. i never did blame you all for the busy schedule you had so don't blame me now that i can't meet up with you all just because you have extra time for this period of time. when did you think of me amongst your busy timetable? furthermore, i need a living, unlike you people out there sponging on your rich parents' money. when all YOUR schooldays and MY schooldays add up, it's the equivalent, so don't whine about not having time when you are having school because you have all the time in the world now. blame the institution you have gotten yourself into. if you have any discrepancies about where/who/what/how/when to meet, just tell me straight into MY face and provide alternatives. don't keep poking at my plan, like aunties do in markets, to hint to me that my plan is unwelcomed. if you can, provide alternatives! i am easy, but with a tight schedule. if you're keeping mum, then blame yourself for all the plans that do not go your way, but according to mine.

oh man, finally i have things to blog about, but not so happy things. :(

bottomline, i'm already trying very hard.

if everybody thinks like kids, this world would be an utopia.

i let my tuition kids do colouring and they were absolutely amazed at me colouring with them. they ended up copying what and how i had coloured instead. how amusing.

the last few minutes were spent playing this reflex game where each party was to receive the same number of cards with different types and numbers of fruits. a bell was placed in the middle and a number shouted before the game started. the objective is to press the bell when the number of SAME type of fruits appear. (example, if 2 persons were playing and one shouts 3, and when 1 card appears an apple and the other card has 2 apples, you press the bell.) the person with the most cards wins.

apparently, there'd be 1 amongst the 3 to be the winner but the winner would always give the other 2 their cards back because they would feel upset about not pressing the bell as quickly as her. she told me it's for fairness. they ended up giving each other the cards back after every round and the game becomes never-ending. how cute.

another class wanted to play uno, and this time round, i joined in. i wholly cannot understand their strategies of playing. from my knowledge, the objective of the game is to get rid of all the cards, instead, they'd get many many cards even when they did have the cards to place down. their mindset is that, the more cards you get, the higher the chances of getting power cards, and the easier it is to manipulate the other players around. well, their tactics clearly didn't work as i was the first to finish clearing my cards in 10 minutes. :) *smug* they proceeded with the game for 20mins before the next winner emerged.

children...

i wanted to quit sales job, i wanted to quit tuition job, but the fear of not having money terrorised me even more and put me off from my actions. such a coward. i hate myself for succumbing to the mercies of money. seriously, online shopping is addictive and tough to curb. a woman's desire is enormously huge, similar to a bottomless pit. social activities are costly, especially in singapore, but without social activities, i might just die, like now, so i ended up not quitting any and i hate myself for it.

i pity sandy and daniel for expanding their franchised products, because that would only mean working even harder than before to reach their increased sales target. having to deal with several customers at one go is exasperating and i suppose they'd need my help especially during promotions. having to teach a newcomer all over again is laborious and troublesome and definitely cannot be conducted during promotions. however, judging from their character, they'd never call for part timers unless they require people. that's the main problem about them not being able to find part timers.

i can't bear to leave the kids, especially when they had told me they dread changing teachers. constant changing of teachers is unfavorable to producing excellent results. furthermore, i do adore the kids. no matter how notorious they are, there is still a bottomline to all that they'd do. at least, they still respect me as a teacher.

how dampening, i can never be a successful career women for i'm too soft-hearted and i'm already caught in the rat race.

and with this, it ends my last day of takashimaya sales job for the moment.

the once in a blue moon takashimaya sales job makes me totally exhausted, especially when i had morning class. making myself busy so i had no time to think about frivolous stuffs. indulge in work!

the run on thursday provided a nice warm-up for the start of sales job, considering now that i managed to bargain at least 8 hours of sales job at one go. there's still a phobia in climbing up and down the shelves, but it makes me feel alive and energetic. maybe it's the lack of physical education that makes me feel sloppy and draggy. but even with pe, i wasn't sure i was much of an athlete. what lacks is probably the attitude.

i'd gotten this impulse to go running yesterday, and so, i did. the last time i'd a decent run seemed to be one year plus ago, so it's no wonder i'm suffering from body aches all over now. the stamina to continue exercising will always falter, like a flinting thought. it seems that women do suffer from fickle-mindedness, myself without any exception.

i'm pretty annoyed by the fact that somebody actually copied my whole hotmail contacts, without my permission, and sent messages to my different groups of friends. as a blogshop owner, i do see the need for advertising, but not when the person copied wholesale and directly from my contacts! firstly, what a lack of sincerity, secondly, how unethical to take your friend's contacts. a couple of my friends thought that i was the blogshop owner because that person had sent emails to my different groups of friends. i suspect it's somebody from sim because i had received one earlier, my email address along with other sim-mates. it makes me wary as to who i send my emails to now because information is so easily accessible and misinterpretated. no matter who he/she is, i hope he/she never lets me know.

the year is ending soon......

who likes fahrenheit and has nothing to do? CLICK HERE! the objective of the game is to make them catch all the goodies to make a gingerbread house for themselves! 3 cheers for fay for telling me this game. :P

i finished the game in 15 minutes today! *smug* i got evidence!

the start of the game where fahrenheit waves to me!! :D


calvin and wu zun preparing to jump to catch goodies! they are clumsy and i lost count of how many times they have 'died' for the sake of food.


yay! cleared! look at zun eating greedily!


next round! dd and aron! i was very determined not to let the 2 of them die as many times as zun and calvin!~ :P therefore, i completed this round pretty fast, or should i say, dd and aron are not as clumsy as the previous 2. love is the power! :P


i don't know why aron has to catch dd.


VICTORY!


extremely elated now! :D the crux of winning is to look at the arrow!

it's holidays! :) not mine but the kids'. we finished the work within half an hour and they wanted to colour and draw. :) ta da! my primary 1 kids!



they want to compete on drawing me. frankly speaking, i don't really think they were drawing me. :P which one looks like me anyway? evangeline drew me teaching kids chinese words.


hidayah drew me walking a cat. i wonder if it's me because i don't have cats and i didn't tie my hair.


the last to finish, jacqueline's! :) she's the youngest of the trio as the other 2 are primary 2 now already.


so i took them with their drawings! jac's quite slow so she hasn't got the chance to draw another picture.


evangeline's cat which looked weird.


and the common theme amongst the kids, L-O-V-E! hidayah told me the one on the left is the female cat. i asked her how come she knows and she couldn't answer. haha!


at certain times, i love being a teacher.

p.s. why am i taking these? because i realise i haven't fully utilise my camera phone and digital camera.

p.p.s do bangladesh celebrate deepavali???

p.p.p.s what is the plural form of bangladesh?

my first time celebrating halloween. TRICK OR TREAT?!

i went to school last night at 8pm. i thought they would dress us up as pumpkins or fairies or devils, but on second thoughts, i weren't attending a makeup party.

welcome to the school of spooks!


each of us got one goodie bag! i thought the paper bags look pretty glamorous and class.


let's see what's inside...

pardon me, i finished the food even before the movie started due to hunger pangs. anyway, there wasn't much food. :P

xiao hui hui kept closing her eyes.


the excursion kicked started with the grudge movie. it's just the english version of ju-on, and since i've seen ju-on before, the movie didn't scare me. plus, the english version did away with most of the suspense and replaced them with the instantaneous kind of technique. to me, the built-up suspense and loud sound effect would seem more horrifying than immediate fright.

we're being grouped into threes to fives for the night game. we're given some clues and we had to solve them to find the various stations to get other clues to solve a mystery. along the way, we had to complete some fear factors or tasks, like to eat the gross food below.


at one of the stations, we were asked to find for a knife cover on the grass patch without the aid of torchlights. so smart elaine asked if we could use the camera and she took a photo of this..

this photo is weird because the 3 of us didn't see anything white nor shiny at the scene, as shown in the photo!!!

in exchange for our courage, we'd get clues like this:

in the end, the clues didn't serve any purpose.

i suppose the most unforgettable part was where we've reached this station for us to move 3 tiny frogs from one bucket into another. elaine's screaming scared the shit out of me when we agreed to do it together.

i hear you sniggering and saying, "what's so scary about those little creatures?" I DARE YOU TO TRY. we're doing it in the dark and the frogs kept jumping like nobody's business. furthermore, there're no brave heroes to help the 3 vulnerable girls.

in the end, i managed to get 1 frog over and it like rubber frog toys, just a little slimy and yucky. both of them agreed that i had a pretty big reaction after shifting it over. oh well, afterall, it was my first attempt at catching an amphibian... the first time round definitely boosted my courage, so i decided to go for the second attempt!~ ok. it's plain scary because the frogs voluntarily jumped onto my hands and TA DA! two at a go though. initially i thought one of them dropped outside the bucket, but thank god, they went down together. i bet the 2 of them are lovers, such that when i tried to catch one, the other jumped up too! :)

after the night game, we went to visit cemetery village. i bet my mum will grind me if she discovers i went to a cemetery at 2am. it was so dark and too many people around for me to feel the eeriness. there were a few huge tombstones along the path but my friends were too terrified to look at them, so most of the time, we turned to looking at our feet.

the second stop outdoors was the marsiling's johor tunnel. it was rumoured that the tunnel could lead to johor bahru. take note, it's rumoured because the tunnel was pretty short and ended somewhere in the jungle too. i presume people of the past thought they had entered another piece of jungle opposite shores.

so out we came and we had to cross this wide ditch. judging from my daily clumsiness, i'm so glad i didn't fall!


the road at 3 in the morning.


that's jb opposite us!


the trip was supposed to be continued to see a medium, but the student counsellors discovered somebody had gone missing when we were departing the second venue! they combed the forests twice but to no avail. they suspected he came unregistered and joined the tour by himself, alone. who in the right mind would come alone?! let's say he did, but how did he leave unnoticed especially when the venues we went were not exactly assessible? *shrugs* whatever it is, we missed the chance of visiting the medium thanks to him.

is it any wonder why my econs lecture today was a total blank?

这个时间，应该是在补习中心教学生的。可是，他们却临时取消整个十一月的课，浪费我的时间，浪费我的精力，还害我特地去找补习时所需要的材料。我甚至因为担心准备不足而发恶梦。真是的。。。

我想，这间补习中心寿命应该不长了吧。学生全部都跑掉了。况且，这样的情形让老师很没有推动力。我就是这样。无奈。。。

等一下还得去教一班。。。

还是教私人补习比较好，时间自己定，学费也比较高，又不用做无谓的琐事。学生也不会因为有同伴而为非作歹。尽管我尽量保持乐观，这种情况如果持续，我也很难保持原有的态度。